Very tired today.  Had an unexpected shift last night, and although I am feeling a lot better I am very tired due to the nature of expelling every toxin extremely fast.  I am looking a bit rough today, but generally dewier so things are going reasonably well.

I am taking about 28,000 percent of the RDA for vitamin C, (I kid you not) and am still not seeing any evidence of overdose. (the only thing that happens with an OD of vit C is the runs, so it is pretty benign)

Doing some property photography this morning and I am now very tired, although the next task is clearing the dining room so that I can work on the very lovely and potentially most serious coffee dude. He will be residing in the dining room for the next month or so.

I am expecting some microscopic ceramic tiles today for this piece.  I am concerned about perspective, but I think alongside the rest of the image I probably shouldn’t worry too much.  It is quite a task, but I think it will be well worthwhile.

Asked myself a lot of questions about why I feel I have to do this?  Am I scared of reality?

I think if I am, it is probably justified, given the amount of scrapes I seem to get myself into, but in this particular case I feel I ought to update myself a bit.  I have gone from being uber respectable banking chick to scruffy artist very easily in the course of the last year, and the two opportunities in the pipeline will mean I will be one or the other for some time to come.  I am upgrading my period banking outfits as I upgrade my level of general self maintenance whilst I work on these pieces.

Finding Haram Bawbag quite exhausting at the moment, but this is in keeping with the person so I am hanging in there. I think the finished piece will be rather spectacular, unlike the person.  There is less of a time limit on this one than the coffee shop items, as I have convinced myself that gorgeous and somewhat swoonworthy coffee dude knows perfectly well what I am up to and I do not want to waste any time getting these done just in case.

Little Shiva is now at the stage where I am adding the more subtle elements, which can be quite confusing.  My instincts are usually right, however, so I tend to roll with whatever pops into my head rather than question it.  Still awaiting about four more different gold types and seeking more but the Italian yarn has been so stunning that a man came up to the car last night and informed me that he loved my sewing and loved me, which made me laugh a lot.

Exhausted after the morning photography so I am going to sleep now.

Kisses,

very tired  but reborn Ina

Being stalked again.  This is tiresome.

I really just work all the time.  It isn’t that fascinating, so you might as well find something else to do.

I haven’t been in a relationship for about 8 years, so there are no scurrilous things you are likely to find out. My self-esteem doesn’t depend on whether anybody finds me attractive or not.

I’m not living a particularly exciting life externally.  I find that life is exciting enough without putting in too much effort.

On the plus side, I am in demand, and am working hard on a few things I had no time to do previously due to my unfortunate habit of having a life.

I am busy for the forseeable future, so if you want anything you will just have to bite the bullet and ask like a normal human. I don’t get my jollies from playing stupid games with people.  It is boring and takes up too much time.

I have moved the promotional side of things along a bit, so we will see how much of a difference that makes.  Still not in a tearing hurry, but I have a lot of interesting plans.

May take myself out for a laugh.

Today was a long day of sewing, because apparently everyone ordered yesterday and I had a long day of waiting for orders that never came.

I got a full tongue done, and started the complex overlay on the lips.  Indian ladies are now taking quite an interest, so I am not sure what I am doing right, but hey great!

I have been sewing in the same spot for six months now, and people are greeting the work like an old friend.  When I am working on the central egg, you can’t actually see me in the car at all, it is so big.

As we are doing more intricate stuff now, it theoretically takes longer, but so far so good.

Decided to go with the hundred thousand french knots.

Tomorrow I think I will take off, so I will go to my favourite spot and maybe do a bit of sewing there for a change.  I have a lot of work to catch up on here, however, so we will see how I feel at the time.

I am still locking my doors all the time and feeling upset constantly, so I am seriously considering leaving my job.  I love the job, but it is not complicated and new things are incoming, so we will see how the new work pattern pans out.  I have my ideal situation in some sense, I can work 24 hours a day if I feel like it, and not see anyone, but I did love the rush of the job I was working so that I could be paid as I made Little Shiva’s chair. I also love getting to see people’s houses.

Met one of the fuckers from that job the other day (Frank, should Little Shiva drop in) and he actually had the audacity to try to greet me.

Lovely rasta dude stopped by briefly.  It is funny, a lot of people brush past the car in the road to get nearer the work several times before they pluck up the courage to say hello.  I have had an artist filming me for several hours, people taking photographs, people bringing their elderly parents to look and a lovely little black girl who was apparently transfixed for about half an hour before I noticed her.

I have decided to do a piece for my favourite coffee shop.  He will have to move something, but I don’t think he will mind.

I see bawbag has been on the site.  Say no to camels. Neither give nor receive camels.

The trishul arrived.  It is much better than the last one, but still a little delicate, so I may be forced to either stitch one or await funds for the big one.

The Damaru is on its third coating of resin, so far it is a bit brittle so I think it will take quite a bit.  I have not ventured into covering it yet as I think I may be forced to fill it with casting resin to make it strong enough for the job.

I am also working on a new  base for Haram Bawbag which will be much nicer than the oil can.  I think it will be one of the cheaper items, at about 3 and a half thousand gbp when it is finally done.  Again there are now increasing issues with paying for bits and pieces as I get more ambitious.

I am on the central panels for the tongues now, as I have tidied up the first flushes of gold and trim, I have rather wild plans for about a hundred thousand french knots and overstitching, but we will see how I feel as we go.

The first job is to do some chalk mandala style work on the window section.  This is to make it strong enough to retain its shape once I hang it from my girder.  Once I take the window panels out, I will need to work quite fast to put the windows in.  There are four rather hobbity large windows, and probably 12 or so little windows to be made.  These will be done by hand, so it is a bit more complicated than a simple decorative glass job.

I am shooting for the chair being under 40000 gbp but again, this depends on how much more time I am putting into it.  I have put in six months thinking and six months solid full time work on it now, and I have guesstimated it at 2 years.

Once I have it ready for hanging, I will then have to work extra hard to keep up with its resin requirement financially, and I will be starting work on the shoe and small bag collection.  I make the most expensive cushions in the world, so I may do some more of those for a laugh.

The greatest interest, however, has been the lighting, so I definitely want to complete some of my earlier work on that.

I could also put some serious time into extending the clothing and ceramic work, as this involves no outlay.

I have a lot of writing to catch up on in the midst of all that, and I am hoping to regain a career shortly, although this has been quite the source of stress.

Iain Duncan Smith is Fit for Work  is getting quite a bit of attention suddenly, but it is another resin drain, so it will be a while yet due to funding.

Marketing is what should command my attention once all that is done, since nothing I am doing is seeing much circulation at present.

I would like to avoid any further disasters, so I am afraid I am a bit unfriendly at the moment.