Working on Haram Bawbag at the moment, whilst doing the Grumpy dude stuff at work.

Changing the tone of Bawbag somewhat, as it was a bit too austere.  It is quite a lot of work.

Bit fed up with the carelessness of people, particularly people that cannot be bothered looking up the meaning of straightforward words.

Not sure what they think is going to happen to them, given how they treat other people.

Apart from that, reasonably happy. Dreamt about Boris last night, oddly.  We apparently render each other almost silent, which is odd.


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I agree with Grumpy Dude

You will notice I have dropped the cute from cute grumpy dude, because I suspect he is married with kids, although unlike the situation with Little Shiva, the subject has not thus far been relevant. (in Little Shiva’s case, the subject was highly relevant and could have been mentioned several times.)

I also think the reason he has been weird fits with this theory.

I think he is right.  I am obviously an evil harlot because he got married some time ago, and unlike the woman in the supermarket or any other kind of shop he frequents, I am up to no good by existing. Sorry I was not as boring as expected.

Still working away on the shoes and cushions, otherwise I don’t think there is any need to speak again.

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Work Update

Things going quite well on the Grumpy Dude project, one piece ready to join the bedroom floor pile, which will make a total of five or so awaiting attention when I feel strong enough. If you could see the pile of stuff waiting to join it you would probably faint.

Started on Little Shiva and was exhausted fairly quickly due to the size and weight of the thing, but I am happy that I will be able to get it done along with the others.

Basically this stage is much heavier work and involves a lot of humphing big boxes of wool, which is why it is advisable to have several pieces to do at once so that you only have to humph the once.

Did some work on Haram Bawbag and am waiting for resin to cure and varnish to dry.  The temperatures up here are so low just now that it takes twice as long as usual, so 48 hours between coats.

Apart from that, still lost in paperwork and I need to go and talk to some business people.  Not sure whether they will want to supply the relevant information or whether I should adopt the suck it and see method.

I would like to meet a nice person that can manage a two way conversation and isn’t an idiot. I am really quite bored with idiots now.



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Strength of Character

I have not devoted much time to Wolfe in the last couple of years, but today’s post is about strength of character.

Strength of character was considered admirable post-war, as everyone’s lives had been touched by horror one way or another.  It was understood that one does not have to be nice to do something good, and that it was more important to stand up for your core beliefs than to be popular.

This appears to be a mystery to more recent generations.

When I fell in love with Wolfe

David Avocado Wolfe

many years ago, it was very much a choice.  His staff had been horrible to me, for no apparent reason, he, whilst fascinating, was fairly trivial and the stories about him were horrific at the time.  I was working very hard on a very heavy book, which I have since not continued with due to massive self-doubt, and I was at a loss to why I found him compelling at all.

However he was a productive muse, and I enjoyed our brief spats, and when all the horrible stuff started happening I could not understand why. The woman referring to herself as the Avocadess appeared to think there was some sort of heirarchy that I should be aware of, and as I live in a different continent I did not really understand why it was relevant at all.

So, rather than doing what most people do, getting offended by the poor treatment and carrying on being very serious and under the radar, I started to ponder how to react to the situation positively.

This led to years and years of self-evaluation, and a basically constant gouch on Wolfe, which has led so far to this website, 35 titles, constant development work and eventually I went to meet him.

I was effectively neutered, because I was so busy thinking about how I could be good enough to meet the challenge of Wolfe effectively that I no longer wanted to participate in a relationship with anyone else.

You could look on it that I was in a situation where I was getting nothing from the several relationships I had at the time, I was not in a position to move on because I was taking care of my mother, and if you were particularly negative, perhaps as a result of watching TV and telling yourself you were over the hill, you could say I had given up.  Nothing could be further from the truth.  I am in the fortunate position to be hit on regularly by men young enough to be my son, despite not being particularly beautiful, on the basis of unusual levels of vibrancy.

So, basically what I am getting to with this is – you always have a choice.  You can choose to wallow in your inadequacy, you can choose to hit out at other people, you can choose to be a small, nasty, self-serving individual, or you can choose to evaluate your behaviour, ignore other people and develop to the point where you are able to rise above disaster.

I chose, rather than doing what most otherwise intelligent people do and hating Wolfe and everything he stands for, to effectively fall in love with him for several years until I understood why.

And the reason?  Strength of character.  Wolfe has been through an awful lot, his background was not happy, he made a lot of mistakes, he has messed up far more times than you or I.  His material is often gathered rather than produced, and he has been in trouble several times.  And yet he still stands up and gets on with it.  He spreads information that people would not seek for themselves, and in my case he gave me the self-confidence to pursue a line of research I would otherwise have kept very much on the back burner.  I am now in the business myself.

That is not, however what I have to thank him for.  What I have to thank Wolfe for, is for very cleverly putting together his overall presentation to tell you that the bottom line is getting it out there.  What other people have to say about you is of absolutely no consequence whatsoever.

An author this morning tweeted at me that I had started a hate campaign against him.  This is because he wishes to imprison a gay man for hitting on him. This author lacks the grace or capacity for the generosity of spirit necessary for a happy life.

His followers are astonished that they have spammed my facebook page for several days, and got nowhere with persuading me that persecuting a gay fan is good because this author is very moderately popular with them.  The mean IQ is not high, needless to say.

Nobody has spammed him, and all I have done is simply disagree with him.

The reason I put this with the rest of the post?

Strength of character.  Get some.  Most of the time, the herd is wrong.


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Author Research Challenge

OK I am defeated, so I am throwing this one out to the authors out there.

“Most famous author in the UK”

Lived in China for several years and brought at least one son up there.

Once stood on the balcony of an asylum with Berlusconi.

Has an exceptionally mannerless and badly behaved son.

If anyone has any ideas who this is, please reply to the tweet as comments on this website just get handbag adverts.



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Mrs Shiva


I see you are back indulging in your husband’s fixation, so I will write you a note.

I have absolutely no reason to lie to you at this point, and I am also going to presume to give you some advice, so hold tight.

I did not know anything about you until after the job was over, when I looked him up on companies house.  Everyone in the office apart from me knew about you, he said nothing to me because he was apparently attempting to crank things up for the sadist. It was extremely hurtful that nobody told me.

There was a lot of male bullshitting, because I have never seen a man work so hard to get attention as he did.  Do not take that personally, he likes attention, and if you persist in attempting to be married from the other end of the country, he isn’t getting that from you. Note it is attention that is the issue and not sex.

I totally ignored him because I believed that he was sleeping with a married woman in the office, whom he paid very close and not very pleasant attention to all the time I was there.  You certainly cannot accuse me of untoward flirting, because I did not even look at him due to the unpleasant atmosphere created by the crap management in that office.

He is not much of a leader, mainly due to immaturity and lack of confidence.  He gets very angry very easily, which I imagine is not much fun to live with.  You will remember I was trying to resolve that at the time, and recommended you a book, which I still think you should get.

The reason he is fixated on this website is much the same reason he stared in the office, and as he has a compulsive personality, he finds it difficult to stop.  I have already said you will be getting a picture of the chair when it is finished, which is likely to be into next year now due to temperatures.

Having said that, past observation tells me that he likes you a whole lot more than you like him, so you could try at least pretending to like him. He would blossom if you took it even further than that and actually liked him.

Nobody ever suggested that you weren’t enough for him, so I am not sure why that was a worry. Absolutely no guile was in evidence, as I do not have any.  The other girl was not happy at all.

I am actually too young for him, his ideal is older than me, so watch out for very much older ladies if you are concerned in the future.

Good luck, and see if you can find a job nearer him. Get yourself knocked up, that might settle things a bit.




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Still missing the Point

And still they continue trying to comment without reading or bothering to actually think about what they are saying.  Ewww we like him, we don’t like you.  Guess what?  I don’t care!

Now they are repeatedly presenting me with the gay dude’s admittedly tasteless conversation with the married homophobe.

Yes, I have seen what the tasteless gay man said to the married homophobe.  It is no worse than any woman on facebook has seen whilst being shown dick pics, if we behaved like that the police would be mighty busy.

It does not justify you wanting to imprison him for it, and it does not justify your stinking attitude to other people, apparently including anyone who disagrees with the party line.

Having been on the receiving end of similarly childish and thoughtless behaviour, I am not interested in whether you find the gay dude tasteful or not, or whether you regard justice as applying to everyone else but you.

I do find your mobbing behaviour pretty disgusting, and I also find your inability to think disgusting.

As for the casual racism of Bawbag and Little Shiva, you can have that too.  I am not interested.  I extended my positive attitude and got a load of bullshit in response, backed up by similarly confused twats.

Why don’t you now go back to watching box sets and counting the money you don’t have?  Perhaps you can stab someone else in the face tomorrow for something you all agree to object to? Nice little crowd you got there.

Why not have a go at the disabled and elderly tomorrow? Honestly it is incredibly frightening that your generation will be attempting politics in ten years.

Being married or from another country is not an excuse for treating everybody else like shit, by the way, just in case you need additional instruction on basic human decency.



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American hysteria alive and well

Gosh the website has been busy today.  I have been called a ‘disgusting person’ and have thus far blocked four unusually narrow minded and dense authors.

I cited several examples of bigotry, if you were capable of actually reading the post, I cited two examples of religious bigotry, I cited fascistic bigotry, I cited ageist bigotry, I cited bigotry against women before I got to the homophobic bigotry of trying to get a gay man arrested for looking at you.

Apparently homophobia is acceptable if you are married.  I have never been less impressed with the  intellect of the yank team.

I am quite sure this post will escalate the hysteria, as they all seem very keen to express their distaste for gay men with the unfortunate affliction of sight in their eyes. They apparently have no difficulty in being very loud about this.

This is very interesting, that they now feel quite free to deflect this on to the one person that said something to the guy that started it.  Pitchfork justice is alive and well.

Isn’t it interesting that they have absolutely no insight into their behaviour whilst screeching about other people?

If this is the society you want to live in, you can keep it.


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PC Bigotry

I have seen a lot of bigots in the recent past, most of them millennials.

First we had the genius punting American corporate propaganda to his robotic staff, most of whom told him how wonderful it was to preserve their temporary income.  When I pointed out that this was how World War 2 started, he was aghast, but he has moved most of his operation back to the Land of the Free, a country which inspired many of Hitler’s ideas in the first place.

Then we had Little Shiva, who had a manager backing him to claim that anything he claimed was harassment, was actual harassment, which led to the ridiculous situation of a very polite email stating that I was an artist and author being cited as harassment.  He later claimed that it was the Sadist that did this, but in order for the Sadist to do this, he had to have the email in the first place. Little Shiva then proceeded to stare constantly for weeks whilst I completely ignored him, which rendered him even more furious.  He is still doing it.

When I pointed out that people asked each other out for drinks by email all the time, and that any one of these emails could then be cited as harassment, that was considered OK because it was not me doing it.

Following this, we had more false accusations, and I also had to call out a public body for allowing extensive ageism in the workplace.  The same people who will accuse you of racism for using the word Muslim in a conversation about Islam feel quite free to laugh about having their older relatives terminated in order to pay their student loans. Not just once, day after day after day.

Of course you have to bear in mind that this kind of confusion is exactly what globalists want.  It is highly desirable to have a heavily diverse population, who are unlikely to form collectives or campaign for a fair wage or a right to a pension.  It is highly desirable because it makes everybody easier to manipulate.

It also makes it easier to impose entirely false and unfair judgements on individual situations depending on whom you are trying to oil up.  Haram Bawbag, for example had no trouble finding support for his bullshit, whereas were I to threaten somebody and then choose to literally scream for an hour on the phone I doubt I would find much in the way of assistance.

Today we have the icing on the cake, an author that was previously on my friend’s list decides that a gay man seeing him in his home village and messaging him to attempt a relationship is now apparently stalking.

It is only stalking if you don’t happen to want to sword fight with your tiny sausage.  Otherwise grow the fuck up, say no thank you and get on with the rest of your very, very sad life.

That goes for the rest of you too.



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Too much to do

I cannot take any more input at the moment, there is far too much to do.

There are many reasons why you do not want to live with an artist.

  1.  In my case, I take up a lot of space, and there is work going on everywhere at home, so I often wander off and do not return for an hour or more.
  2. I am always working, even when sleeping, so my mind is often not pointing at you.
  3. Nothing is more important than the workload, whether that is creating, writing or going to an actual job, so you are constantly fighting for attention.
  4. Seemingly random things are very important one day, and then forgotten entirely for weeks because of the focus.
  5. Whilst letting go of caring what other people think is highly desirable, it is not everyone’s cup of tea.  I often see even quite well regarded people who are still in the trap of caring what other people think of them, and I frankly feel sorry for them.
  6. Even I do not like everything that I do, and the reason for doing it is often not clear for a few years at a time.  This makes evaluation difficult.  For example, I particularly dislike Rebecca Brooks is fit for work, but it looks great in my kitchen because of the other items in the room and it is very handy.  It is unlikely to make sense that I will happily spend time and money on a piece that I hate throughout, but as I am often working on another idea that I need to practise on to clarify it, it is often unlikely that I can explain that. I really made that piece for my mother and she enjoyed it, so although I hate it, it is not going anywhere.
  7. When you are with a person who is in a constant state of self-development, you can feel that they will grow out of you, which again does not suit everyone.
  8. Not every artist focuses on people.  I have because that is what provokes emotion and the compulsion to make things, it is also very positive emotionally because even when disasters happen, you can use it for something else. That is alarming for prospective partners, some of whom would prefer that you be devastated by their bullshit.
  9. It is impossible to relax when you are constantly sparking off new ideas.  That is not easy to deal with, especially as every word gets used for something.
  10. Ego – writing and art are both ego-led activities.  Some people are more resilient than others.  I am pretty sure many of the people taking a pop at me recently would not withstand the regular negativity of other people that I have shrugged off.
  11. Not giving a shit about your appearance.  I am often covered in glue or resin, and I will forget about health for months if I am sufficiently entranced by what I am doing.  Little Shiva, for example, has made me rather fat because I haven’t lifted my head in 9 months.  Normally I will finish in 3 months and go and deal with things like breathing, but this period has been intense work.
  12. Crazy priorities.  It is very difficult to distract someone who only cares about work.

And then there are the inappropriate choices you make because of your wiring.  I did not end up liking Little Shiva as a person, for example, but he was a hugely productive error of judgement and I otherwise adored him.  I have no idea why he is still on the website, I am assuming it is to do with his rather distant home life, but I assume it is vanity or loneliness that keeps him checking up on progress.  He still has rather a long wait ahead.

It is most interesting when you meet people who are highly creative and who have had it battered out of them, either by a love of convention, or by personal shame, or by family stuff.  It clearly drives them quite crazy.  One chap I have encountered recently is beautifully turned out and drinks far too much, to the point of manipulating and judging other people, simply to numb his nerves.

What I am getting at with this is that your emotional state should not get the better of you in terms of behaviour.  Far better to use it for something useful, like developing your brain to deal with other problems.  It is quite incredible how beneficial working in 3 dimensions is for your writing, for example.

Anyway, I have some 2 dimensional business to take care off, so toodle pip.


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