Lying for Money

I’ve never lied to a company once in the course of my life, and I am not starting now.

This is not an easy way of life.  Most, if not all people lie for money.  I don’t.

My reasoning being that on my father’s side I have a proud history to live up to, and the rest of the family aren’t capable of it, nor do they even know about it, because my father did not choose to tell them.

I had an induction this week indicating that I am expected to lie.  I don’t plan to.  The offer on the table is not particularly edifying.

Explained the situation with the staring brats, in very vague terms.  They will be asking me more about this.  I look forward to it.  I still don’t plan to lie to them.

If Boris would care to get in touch, I am close to being free enough to be of some help if he wants. I’m very pissed off with how things are going.

Started walking again, finally after the revolting events at the Scottish Government.  I just realised how horrible that place was.  I was quite right to kiss them goodbye.

Anyway, from tomorrow things may look even more whacky doodle, because I cannot lie.

I think businesses who ask their staff to lie to them deserve to fail.

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Yay I still have two stalkers

Staring Brat 2 was kind enough to show his face, so I am content.

I was just explaining what happened this morning, and it struck me how comical the entire story is. It’s nice that I can see the funny side.

I think it might be a good angle to tell the story from the perspective of Staring Brat 1, so I might work on that ,  It’s a good exercise.  I’m an absolute bitch for not falling at his feet, naturally.

You can’t help things like lengthy history of being treated badly and the wildcard incident of Staring Brat 2.  That is quite literally the only time I have ever been sufficiently overcome by what I assume was hormones to turn a perfectly ordinary conversation into what turned out to be the beginning of a lengthy nightmare.

Someone was asking whether he was a stalker, given that I again described him as being spectacularly beautiful?  One male staff member said that surely only ugly people were stalkers or rapists? That’s not how it works in this case.

He has no intention of ever speaking to me,  he hasn’t seen me for five months and still feels the need to stare at the website.  That is a stalker.

He was clearly very interested in me and still went out of his way to damage me as much as possible.  That, again, is a stalker, not someone who gives a shit about you.

Most unfortunate, but that’s life.  I was still glad to see him yesterday.  He had a beautiful smile.  It is very sad that very few people are likely to get to enjoy it. I can’t help him with that.

Anyway, hard at work, I have a lot of things to do this week, so toodle pip.




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Where is Staring Brat 2?

I’m quite missing him actually, he’s been gone since before the weekend. Should he stop by, the bank is now banned from the website.

He’s probably bored.  So am I.

Collection is going well, looking a bit more fashiony than usual so far, but there is a long way to go.  This weekend has been very pink, but i got some good work done, and dug out some old stuff i had on the way for Wolfe, which I will finish off at the same time.

This is going to be a mammoth update, so it will take a little while to put together. The chair is not doing anything until the update is done, so don’t hang around until next autumn for that.

In the meantime, been turned down for another job I could easily do, which I have queried.

Met a creative person at work.  She said she was creative, but it seemed to involve watching youtube videos and visiting the CCA.  I did try not to say anything but I kind of did.

Anyway busy working towards the IRS and getting the taxation sorted out for Amazon, so once that’s done Ina will look a bit different and require a lot more work, which is tiresome but necessary.

After this update I will probably focus on the games and courses for further games.

No sign of the nice porn star, but I haven’t checked recently.  Met a cute Kurdish dude.

Not sure if I’m gaining or losing weight.  I haven’t been out much, because of the work, but some clothes are smaller and some much bigger, which is a bit odd.

Need to figure out some balance.  I’m getting a bit bored.

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It’s the weekend, time for work

We get to Saturday night this week before I can start work, mainly because I spent any available breaks this week ahem working.  Went to  Broomhill and got a couple of coffees from Kothel to celebrate.

The shoes are at stage one, the handbag collection has grown, I have several sources of inspiration so there will be a number of new styles developing, plus some unfinished work.

Unsurprising Habits of Unsuccessful people is very popular with heavy duty writers, so we have a rather unexpected hit on our hands.  Not a huge number of downloads, but certainly critical acclaim.  I have created a mug to celebrate, and once I have my tax situation sorted out, hopefully this evening, I will be doing mugs for all the covers. You can find it on the free books page, and the mug is available from my store on etsy.

Busy busy,


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And so the Brexit War truly begins …


Today’s news is not great.  With any luck however, it means that Theresa May is heading for retirement and the deal is not final yet.  We have to wait and see.

For the remainers and the nats that still read this now and again – here is why Brexit has been a good thing so far, regardless of the reasoning or cause:

  1. Half of the population demanding cheap holidays and claiming that the other half are racists for wanting the poor to have work in tourism and manufacturing is neither informed nor sensible.
  2. Do you know the difference between money in and money out?  The UK has run a trade deficit for decades, which has been used in part as an excuse for austerity measures, hurting the poor, disabled and elderly.  Not only have tourism and manufacturing revived, I am now able to work outside the UK and bring money in, which was not worth doing with a strong pound.  Even a child must understand that money flowing into the economy is better than money continuously being spent.
  3. 55% of Scotland were stupid and sufficiently badly educated about history to want to reject independence.  They frankly no longer deserve any consideration, which is why 1 in 3 of us moved on to consider the matter of whether the UK should be in the EU. In any case, a frictional position is far better in terms of long term future for Scotland.
  4. Brexit was never anything to do with immigration.  All that happens is that we get more immigrants from the commonwealth instead, the good thing about it was the stimulation of the unskilled sector, so that immigrants and the poor alike can actually eat.
  5. Whether the Tories are fighting or not is not really important given that the opposition haven’t been particularly effective, nor have they been remotely considerate of Scotland.

So now is the time for some action in terms of making sure that deal isn’t final.  A deal that suits nobody is utterly pointless.

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Effects of Trauma

It is most interesting seeing the effects of trauma first hand.

I am currently working with someone else who was put off the last banking project, and she is completely unaware that she has been replaced for no reason other than money squandering.

She remembers it as a fantastic place, with great money – she was clearly on the winning team at one point, as she actually got some overtime, and she also got some actual training at some point.  It is fascinating to see from this just how much trauma I experienced from that episode.

I do not know if she was on the same shift, I dimly recognise her, but I think I probably only saw her on her overtime days, which is probably why she is a) happy because she would have been getting an outrageous sum per day on those days and b) not traumatised because she had no extensive experience of the Staring Brats.

Needless to say, I do not wish to discuss it with her, which is going to be awkward as apparently we are all to be on the same team for the forseeable future.

Trauma colors everything.  You remember different things than when you are left alone.

It is not okay to have somebody staring at you for 12 hours at a time, keeping control of your wages although he is not your team leader, and poisoning every breath you take because he just cannot manage a conversation.

It is not okay to put a person like that in charge of people. I was not the only person he did this to. In fact my non-friend, that didn’t bother to let me know the story with Staring Brat 2  had to be pep talked into not walking out more than once because she was getting similar treatment in terms of the staring.

Anyway, this chick that I’m working with has no idea that her contract has just been terminated for no reason other than some poor management strategy that involves bleeding a major financial institution for as much money as possible for the next year or so.  In fact they have just had their contract lengthened, so presumably there is some reason that they don’t like having money.

Most interesting, and a lesson in letting go of trauma as fast as you can, because it literally makes you physically ill.

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Hard at work – notes for Wolfe

So right now I am working hard on the affordable range for ebay, the shoes, and the Supermix project.

I am planning to release Supermix in stages, and in small amounts. This is for two reasons, one is that it is in test marketing phase, and I want to iron out any potential problems before any significant outlay, and the second is that I want to talk to Wolfe about my supply chain when the game is finished, since I am rather confident that he will have significant input on both.

I am doing this now, so that I have another store or ten set up whilst I am doing further immediate work to generate more working capital.  This is to avoid borrowing or outlay that I would rather spend on the house.  I have a number of projects to do on it before any further aggression from the scum family, and I do not require any input from stupid people.

I am also setting things up in case I manage to land a regular public speaking gig, which I think will help with the Wolfe side of the project – no I am not trying to distract him from his children, I am entirely confident that we can cope with putting things on a more professional footing once the work is actually done.

Everything I have done so far has been groundwork, and there is significantly more to be done before any question of money arises.

I do realise Wolfe will find this astonishing, however we do have tortoise versus hare situation here, and my tortoise is moving significantly faster in some respects than his hare. I think so far I managed to get him into several arenas he would not otherwise have covered, and there is still more work to do.

For those readers who fail to understand this, I am neither a superfan nor a servant, I am employing a complex and large scale strategy which costs nothing and covers a lot of ground, in order to lay a foundation for a taller construction in terms of the eventual outcome.  If you don’t understand what that means, it is probably because your brain is under developed because you do not practise the correct exercises in terms of development.  It is of great importance that you balance any academic or self development work with a three dimensional sense of how it eventually looks, if you want to create more advanced strategies.

Anyway, I happen to think the outcome of the project is worth it, so it is important to get all this stuff done.

I want to get a series of business books out, they will be quite abstract, the work for Boris needs to be moved along, and I need the current range of more immediate products to be sitting advertising my brand before I even think about doing anything else.

I have three jobs alongside the contracts, that I would like to be doing on top of this, each for different but important reasons.  It is important to have contingencies in place, for one thing, but for another it is very difficult to create if you are worried about stupid mundane things like money.

So, reasonably happy with progress now that I lack distractions.  It is lonely and tiring – I fell asleep mid sentence earlier, but come the spring, I think we will be seeing some positive developments from the Ina Disguise project.


Much affection,






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