Finally managed to talk to a friend about my current plans and the conversation was as bonkers as ever.
In the meantime, I constructed a note for Wolfe to indicate that I am at the event, should I make it so that he doesn’t have to see or talk to me unless he wants to. Why am I so apologetic about this? I have been extremely patient, his entourage seem to think I am made of some sort of shit, and I have been waiting to provide him with some quality material that he doesn’t even have to pay for for several years. Apart from some choice words, I have nothing to apologise to Wolfe for. Every bit of sour has been compensated for with sweet at other times.
Anyway, she harped back to a friend of hers who had become ‘obsessed’ with a Slovenian singer, who then used her very polite sounding obsession to make a name for himself by pointing a finger at her.
Yeah, its a dog eat dog world out there and doing anything is utterly pointless. May I point out that this is why the planet is in the state it is in? If everybody continues to function in this egocentric and stupid way, the whole world will end up looking like the USA and nobody creative will bother doing anything. I am sure this will suit some people, especially those who make a living by talking about having read a book once, but it will not actually make life better.
I frankly do not care about Wolfe’s private life that he didn’t tell anyone about. I do not care about the unhappy woman that caused me years of pain with her bullshit, and I do not care if he is worth 10c or $200 million. None of these things matter. All that matters is that I can see a problem that nobody else seems to be addressing and that I actually deal with it. It affects everyone, and it affects the future. In the unlikely event that he actually listens to me, it will also make Wolfe a little bit less obscure.
Why I am to be reduced to being referred to as ‘a fan in denial’ and sitting at an event that I may not even be able to cope with listening to (for a variety of reasons) I do not know. Maybe people, whether they know me or not, should try a bit of fucking respect for a change. Maybe I should just stop bothering at all.
In the last few years, because of shit like this I have been reduced from a proud, intelligent hardworking individual to a brainless blob, mired in bullshit that benefits everyone but me. I am tired of it. I am not a bimbo, I have no respect whatsoever for fame, and I have a job to do. Just let me do it already.