Pornography

I am, of course, very flattered by all this attention, but I really don’t need any more staring.  I would say using the bank computers to stare at the website is misuse of company resources.  Perhaps I should complain to your manager?

This is, of course, misery porn.  The nasty little boys are still hoovering evidence of damage, and again became hysterical yesterday.  They are using cloud VPNs on their particularly nervous days. No doubt he still thinks that he is entitled, and I am a peasant who apparently deserves to be abused at work.  That is certainly how his wife behaved.  From the perspective of somebody who actually has some genuine management talent, this is laughable.

This could all have been averted, of course, if they had not assumed that I would be so broken by this event that they would be reading woebegone tales of my life being destroyed.  This is perverted behaviour, but it is reflective of a particular kind of pornography, which men with very small brains and too much testosterone are particularly fond of.

Having had some time on my hands of late, I have been taking a look at popular pornography in an effort to understand why you would attack someone who went out of her way to avoid attacking you, even as you did it.

It is the kind of objectification pornography that feminists like to object to on the grounds that it is considered abusive.  From many perspectives, it is considered odd that other women quite like this form of pornography because it generally has a storyline and involves an unusually long element of foreplay because that is the nature of submission porn.

There are several events on in Glasgow this week, should you be interested in meeting these women. I took the trouble of researching them today.  When you return to abusing the company computers to see what I say next, here are the events where you can meet submissive women and masochists this week.  Feel free to bring your wife, should you have one.  Or not as the case may be.  Should you happen to be a submissive bisexual male, I am sure this can also be accommodated by some big hairy man who isn’t fussy about little skinny boys who don’t understand what responsibility is:

The Glasgow Dungeon:  Hengler’s Circus 351-363 Sauchiehall Street

This one has an entry fee, but if you like performing in public, you will learn about submission on Friday July 27th at 8pm.  It is £10 to get in, but you are welcome to wear your bare-assed chaps or whatever people wear to these events. I am sure you will be made most welcome.

On Sunday 29th there are two events, T cup and Brush up in the afternoon and evening respectively.  T cup seems to be aimed at ladies who like tea, so this might be a good option to look for potential victims or a dominatrix, which might help you enormously.  Brush up starts at 6pm and relates to people who like medical play, which seems a little bit vicious, but it might be your thing, I do not wish to know.

The Counting House, George Square

Thursday night, 26th also sees the munch at the above, which is probably free to get into, and I would assume this is an older, less flashy but probably considerably more talented crowd. This starts at 8pm.

Sir John Moore, Argyll Street, Glasgow

Saturday night at 6pm sees a more casual event called Kinky drinks at the above.  Look for the table with the sunflowers.

Good luck.  I am sure you can both find the lady you are looking for if you actually try.

Toodle pip,

 

Ina

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Amazing

It never ceases to amaze me how much people think they can take the piss.

I am now taking legal advice.

I do not see why I would tolerate this after all these years.  I’ve had enough.

On a lighter note, something weird is happening on a personal level.  I have barely thought about Wolfe for three months, which is not so good. and perversely, I look out for SB2 on the website every day, although I at no point claimed to have any depth of feeling for him or particular belief that anything was going to work out.  I was just doing my usual distraction tactic because I did not want to think about what happened to my mother. He was delightful to look at, but apparently furious with me when I stopped participating in the hilarious fake flirting. I certainly don’t feel like writing  after that repulsive episode.

He is neither a safe nor a particularly nice person on the evidence presented, so I do not plan to bother finding out what he thought he was playing at, since he would not tell the truth anyway. What would be the point?

I, however am a safe and very nice person, so I do not see why I would tolerate a series of stupid little boys trying to drag my name through the mud and causing me any financial difficulty because they thought it would be a laugh to see me terrified enough to presumably want to bonk SB1.   That seems to have been the idea anyway.

This is not healthy, nor funny behaviour and I made it entirely clear to the people I spoke to that my aim was to prevent anything like this happening to anybody else.  Instead I get yet more stupid little boys thinking they can talk smack to me and I will just roll over and die.

No thanks, I think I come after you all directly. I do not see why I would be held to a different set of rules than the rest of the office.  I got several emails inviting me out for drinks in the course of working there, and nobody got fired over that.

Fuck you all very much for being really nasty individuals.

Ina

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5 weeks on

It has now been five weeks since I was deprived of the notice I was entitled to in addition to being put out of work by a bunch of guys I wouldn’t have hired in the first place, and whom I would not allow near staff since they obviously don’t know anything about management.

Today I was rejected for a data entry job that I know a nineteen year old with very little experience is working on.

This failed to amuse, strangely enough, and I am now working on my other project whilst wondering why I have to listen to people who weren’t born when I started working telling me that I am suddenly incapable of doing very simple jobs.

I had two interviews yesterday, I have another one tomorrow, and another one next week, despite the best efforts of most of the people I am encountering.

I do wonder about some places.  Two of the worst paying jobs I applied for also have rotating shift patterns to ensure that you cannot work a second job whilst doing it.  Does it not occur to people that there is no good reason for taking a bad job?  Do they believe that underpaying people also gives them a license to take their time from them without any sense of how they are going to manage?

I had a boss with a cocaine problem years ago.  He tried to impose mandatory shifts on dishwashers.  You can imagine how that turned out.

In the meantime, I have other work to do, so that I never have to deal with this problem again.

This is all extremely tiresome, and if anybody imagines that I will ever forgive them for this, they are sadly mistaken.  Their bad decisions are not my business and I should not be having to pay for them.

I saw an advert for someone to run a building site for a tenner an hour today.  Yeah, because we need unlimited competition for wages like a hole in the head.

 

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Positive Progress

The dude came through for me, so the crops are temporarily saved.  I will be managing several teams shortly.

What a relief!  I have literally done nothing but apply for jobs for a full month.  Now I can do some weeding, or go for a walk, or take a drive without feeling terrified.

Sorry to disappoint you SB1, but I spent 22 years terrified because of the scum family, so that synapse is pretty frazzled.  Fear ain’t fun, and it certainly isn’t attractive.

Let’s talk about steroids:

Hair loss

Paranoia

Staring

Inability to control weight without them

Mood swings and uncontrolled behaviour

Too much testosterone hence the whacky fantasy life

Shrunken testicles

Inability to perform

Greasy skin

None of which is remotely attractive.

 

Counselling would be more helpful.  Preferably from a skilled psychotherapist.

In the meantime, I have a ton of work to do on the projects, so I probably won’t be updating as much for the next month or three.

Boris is looking gorgeous.  I’m glad you got the pressure off, sweetpea.  Rooting for you. No word from the Viscount so far.

 

Ina

 

 

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Knowing your own worth

It is very difficult, if you happen to be me, to know your own worth.

I get bored very quickly if I am tolerably good at stuff, and I am a knowledge nut – one of the main problems with the last job was that it was not really possible to get the knowledge you felt relevant because it was more of a rule based system that had little in the way of depth.

I am hearing that the people who are still there are being told not to worry about the endless new errors.

Anyway this week I have bigger interviews with bigger people.  Last weeks interviews were with small people for small things.  They haven’t got back to me yet.

Only one interview with a male, and I think that is the only one I have a hope of getting to be honest, as he appreciated my straightforward method of communication.  Having spent most of my time with men over the years I am not sufficiently interested in whether people like me as a rule. Anyway, the dude was all about the work, which I like, and I quite fancy organising teams across major venues, so hopefully I have secured a couple of weeks at least.

The other one was with a call centre that I see from their reviews has an atrocious management system.  That should be helpful, not.  I am now considering whether I should distill the art of management into a book, since nobody seems to know what it is anymore.

The 20 year old that had been sent to interview me was quivering and barking at the same time, asking me questions more appropriate for a school leaver.  She then tried to tell me that in order to tell me whether I had this terrible job she would have to ‘wash up’ and ‘brush up.’

This was clearly management speak for this place.  I also noted that they had squashed an HR department of 20 people into a room I would not keep a cat in, it was so small.

I look forward to my new business cards arriving so that I may go back to my own kind, in my more pleasant idea of surroundings.  We shall see if I can make some space for me to operate effectively, since apparently nobody can read or interpret with any art at all.

I found a fascinating programme provided by adzuna to measure your worth in terms of salary. I did this because I realised that I was pitching too low, on one hand, and did not, because of the ongoing problems with shrunken booze brains, have any opportunity of earning what I’m actually worth.  It turned out that the figure I had guesstimated for my patchwork life was exactly correct, and I am getting slightly better results in terms of return from jobs paying slightly better.

I really need two jobs.  I haven’t stopped trying to make this happen since my mother was killed.  I am taking the view that I need to make Ina, or something along these lines my second job and not worry about stupid people any more.

I miss my mother.  She would have said something sarcastic and yet encouraging at this point. Why are people so fucking stupid?

 

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Mansplaining

Hilariously, one of my former colleagues, if you could call them that, patiently mansplained that Staring Brat 1 was 35 last night.

This was because he had no clue what age I am.

I am sure this is very flattering, however Staring Brat 1 went to the trouble of inventing a reason for needing our dates of birth shortly after we started in order to find this information.  He knew perfectly well I was considerably older than him.

He then mansplained that SB2 was thin and small.  Yeah, he was when I made the comment about his being beautiful, he then became less beautiful by the day as he got bigger and bigger.  Evidently he hadn’t noticed the growth spurt during my time there.  The last time I saw SB2, which was about ten days ago, he was almost as big as SB1.  He achieved this in about 8 weeks.  What on earth was the point in losing all that weight if all he was going to do was turn into a giant brute?

Twisty has suggested that this is his idea of being a man.  He can keep it, along with his idea of being married.  Not having to deal with bullshit like this is just heavenly.

It is great having somebody with less experience and less interest in work mansplaining or worse, actively trying to damage your life.  If only these people could experience it. As they fumble in the dark at home I am sure they imagine that they are in control by making a complete twat of themselves.

I actively avoided complaining about Staring Brat 1, because I could see how hopeless he was.  This was a mistake.  My friend is right, when these things happen you should go for the jugular every time.

I, however, chose to work with men for years.  I found that the less gender tension I tolerated from them, the fewer stupid problems I had to deal with, so I am a generous and tolerant leader as a rule. Nobody is humiliated, nobody gets to humiliate anybody else.  Simples.

Unfortunately, these people have not either been trained, done any reading, or gained any experience.  For some reason this means they get hundreds of pounds a day and I get fired for a reason they simply invented for ‘good and fun entertainment,’ because they were unhappy at home, a bit inadequate, and a big bit stupid.

Staring Brat 2 was a different matter.  A whole lot of separate problems, starting with the ‘seriousness – beautiful’ comment which was entirely out of my hands.  I have not previously made such a comment.  I think the only previous episode which even remotely resembles it was 22 years ago, and that spoilt boy got three whole months of my attention.

Anyway, none of that helps now. I am still considered unemployable by neds, and only the snob value jobs seem to be taking much of an interest.  A hotel which charges £400 a night would like to talk to me this week.  I am wary of this level of exclusivity.

I have started another three projects now, on the basis of building an income later.  This looks like a whole lot of intense work, but if it frees me up to return to the plan it will be helpful.  I cannot be bothered with all these delays.  I want life to be now, not whilst I am having to make endless contingency plans.

I am hugely comforted by the fact that all three of the people who decided to entertain themselves by causing me problems when my mother had just been killed by similarly stupid people will have miserable, boring and bitter little lives, followed by a painful old age and will probably be murdered in a hospital somewhere eventually.

That doesn’t pay my bills, however, and it doesn’t make what they did to me go away.

 

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New Project News

I finally had an idea I can live with in terms of scale and profitability, so I am rolling with it, although it is not compatible with Ina, and it is not compatible with my medium term objectives.

It is likely to mushroom, but that doesn’t matter at the moment.  What matters is that I am distracted from the disaster that was the last job, and the sadness that nothing nice ever seems to happen.

I was so happy that I had finally done something spontaneous without overthinking it, and then it turns out Mr Ripley is not very nice and also married to someone who is also not very nice.

The mercy is that it seems to be impossible for people to hide it.  My sister couldn’t hide it, the relevant exs couldn’t hide it. SB1 and 2 couldn’t hide it.  The lack of introspection is incredible.

However, it has to be said that a decade of being in love with Wolfe was not reasonable either, although it was a lot safer.  I am glad that he wasn’t waiting for me to grow out of the miseries, because he would have been waiting a long time.

For my sins, I now have sixty blog entries and as many short articles to write now, preferably before Wednesday or so, as things are likely to take another different direction then.

Believe it or not, I actually miss the spark of life from SB2.  I seem to like complicated people, even if they are objectionable, which means it is probably better if I get a dog and stay away from them.

The new plans involve networking with an entirely different set of people, who are likely to find me considerably less of a mental stretch than the last couple of lots did.

If the niche works, however, it may negate the need to go back to work at all, so I had better get busy before the sewing mood strikes.

I would like to meet a grown up male that actually gives a shit about me please, if that could be arranged. Nothing too startling, just somebody to talk to that isn’t vile.

 

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Poor poppet

You really miss me this much?

I’m not coming anywhere near you after that experience, so I don’t think this is likely to work.

Your business is your business.  I’m working on something new.

I probably won’t mix the two, so if you want to know more you will have to bite the bullet.

 

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Amazingly Angry

My friend and I went out tonight.  I wanted to scope a restaurant I was interested in managing, so we went to find out what it was like.  It didn’t smell all that great, and the comedy, whilst not awful, was not good enough for me to want to spend a lot of time there.

I wonder if the city centre is dying.  I have wandered around a lot over the last few weeks, and it never seems to be as busy as it used to be.  The ten o’clock curfew on sitting outside seems ridiculous in a country where we can only sit outside in the evening for two months of the year.

Imagine my horror when the manager referred to in the previous posts comes speeding past me on the pavement.  I am quite astonished at the lack of shame.

I cannot imagine what little you would have to have in the way of humanity to deliberately participate in terrorising a grieving woman because a team leader you didn’t even like (SB1MV)  wanted to bonk her and didn’t know any other way of going about it.

I cannot imagine why you would then lie to her about the cause (SB2) and lie to SB2 about my termination.  He told him I had been laid off, apparently.

I cannot imagine then thinking that you would do anything other than avoid the person whose name you were destroying rather than presume to share a pavement with her.

I do not  have the level of spiteful bile these people have, so I do not understand it.  Nor do I understand why someone purporting to be a friend would wait to see what happened rather than telling me upfront what was going on.

I am honestly astonished at the level of pain this has caused.

It isn’t going away. I am tired of people like this.  There are so many of them.  Mean-spirited, stupid, spiteful little shits who don’t deserve anything.

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